I got invisalgn and everything hurts. Which I was expecting because I wore braces and retainers for years.
My Projected After:
It’s not all just cosmetic. I’m hoping a corrected bite will help with my TMJ/jaw pain and some of my neck pain? Who knows. I hope to be happier with straighter teeth! Although it makes me feel a little guilty because I wore braces for many years when I was in middle school.
A friend recently reccomended to me hemp oil for pain. Her suggestion was Charolette’s Web (https://www.cwhemp.com/) which I would LOVE to try. But my bank account disagrees until I know for sure it will work.
So I’m going to try a less expensive one for right now. I’ve decided to go with CBD Genesis (https://cbdvapejuice.net/cbd-drip/cbd-genesis-tincture/) in 550mg strength, although Koi CBD was a close second (https://koicbd.com/product/red-koi-cbd/).
Now I just need to find $60 + shipping somewhere in my budget to purchase it!
I have it. My new neurologist (Dr Rao at Hopkins) looked at my MRI for about 2 seconds and diagnosed me with it. I didn’t know what to say besides “oh”. And I thought back to everyone who came to me and said “Have you heard about this thing called Chiari Malformation?” And my answer was always yes, but I’ve already looked into it and I don’t have it. JOKES ON ME.
I’ve got to find exactly which of my MRIs shows it.
So far my treatment is to drink water; 2.5 L a day, which sounds like torture to me.
The more research I do, the more my symptoms match up pretty much exactly.
And that makes it Migraine Awareness Month again as well! This year I don’t have any sort of elaborate photography project or anything planned (well, not yet at least) but I’ll figure out something to do for it. Right now I just want an awareness shirt I can wear. But I can’t afford the fucking $20 to order one online.
Just like the Lamictal, here I go again. I’ve started dosing down on my Namenda. I’ve known for quite a bit now that it hasn’t done anything. I mean I don’t think it has. Maybe there was a small benefit at first? Maybe there was no benefit at all? And it was just some sort of placebo.
Whatever the case, I’m dosing myself down to be completely off of it. I’m only doing my morning dose for 1 week, and then it will be none at all. That’ll leave me with only like 2 medications I take everyday?
I’ve stopped taking my Lamictal. I didn’t feel like it was really doing anything for my snow and I don’t like the idea of being on a medication if I don’t really need it. I’ve gotten to that point where I want to just throw all my pills out the window and let my body suffer for the way it’s been treating me.
I probably should have talked to someone about it, considering I still don’t have a regular neurologist. But I just tapered down off of it the same way I started it. Half the dose for 2 weeks & continue until no more Lamictal.
I’m half tempted to just delete this blog because I’m so terrible about updating! I find this is a really handy way to keep track of my health nonsense for myself, but if I never update the thing, what’s the point? UGH maybe I’ll actually start using the mobil app so when I’m at work or out in the world somewhere, I can blog on the go, when things are fresh in my mind, and it’s not like I have to sit down at one time and force myself to type out something coherent.
Lately I’ve been having that feeling.
The one where you just want to stop taking all your medications and just suffer.
To punish your own body for punishing you for so long.
Lately I’ve been giving that feeling serious thought. Because of side effects.
Side effects that my doctor has “never heard of before” and that “shouldn’t be happening because of this medication”. Nevertheless, I’m experiencing them. And every time I stop the medication, these side effects go away. It’s at the point where I would rather have high blood pressure than suffer through this side effect.
I do want to lessen the amount of medication I take daily. Although taking medication makes me feel like my conditions are more “real” and it’s not just all in my head as I’ve been told for years.
UGH I just have been horrible about updating this blog. I think I have mostly been using tumblr to post little complaining sentences lol.
Recently I have had a pulsed radiofrequency ablation procedure on my occipital nerves. I’m not sure if it has worked yet. It might have sent all my pain to the front of my head now? I know I have been using more Midrin than usual (probably because my sleep and work schedule has been very messed up lately though) which probably isn’t good. I’ve been getting more pain in the front of my head now, as opposed to the back/sides. I do know that I need to start physical therapy very soon because my neck and back are getting worse. I cannot put this off any longer.
It’s so hard for me to sit down and write something, but I am going to try my best to continue to do it. I always was a writer and I sort of miss it.
I feel as though I haven’t been updating this as much as I should, probably because I am TIRED. Sleepy girl for life.
This past Monday (1 week ago now) Jan 23rd, I saw my neuro-opthamologist for a follow up. Something about a test result with my retina being slightly abnormal, but I have a follow up with a retina specialist as soon as I email him and find out who he wants me to see. But the most exciting thing is, I finally got a prescription for Lamictal! This mysterious drug that I have been hearing about every time that I have went to see him for about a year now.
It’s an anti-seizure medication but it has shown to help with migraine and visual snow. It’s one where you will slowly have to increase your dose up to the correct amount to see any relief. I’ve only been taking it a week so far, and I am just EXHAUSTED. Never been so sleepy for so long in my life. I decided to caffeinate myself today, which was probably a bad idea, but I have things to do!
I am also very very paranoid of one of the rare side effects, Steven Johnsons syndrome (SJS) for no reason other than it makes your skin fall off and I really don’t want to deal with that.
Let’s see how my lamictal journey goes.
For the first time since forever, I didn’t make a New Years resolution. The past two years my resolutions have been somewhere along the lines of “be healthier” and “manage my illness more”, but this year I didn’t think it would be fair to hold myself accountable for such an impossible goal.
It is not my fault that I am sick. It is not my fault that it is getting worse. And it is definitely not my fault that no treatments are working.
This year my resolution is:
What does that mean? I’m probably not even 100% sure at this point. I am hoping that this is a resolution I can remember throughout the year and that it is something that’s meaning will change depending on how life goes this year.
Right now, to me it means to keep going; to not get discouraged and not give up in seeking an appropriate treatment for my pain. To keep working even though I may be sacrificing my health for it. Rest, but do not give up.
Here’s to another year of adventures!