It definitely did something. But what, I am not 100% sure. I do know I am going to try it again, as soon as I can afford it. I will need a higher dosage and a better flavor. Having something that felt like warm vanilla smoke in my mouth was WEIRD. I’m not a fan.
So far the CBD verdict: Very much like. Made the day to day much easier to deal with, and I had to take significantly less OTC medicines.
I’m thinking about going to the Oct 7th one in Philly (2+ hours from the house) Here
But I’m also seeing there’s one in DC on Oct 15th, the weekend after Here
I can’t really run.. I’ll probably try to do the walks for each one. The price is about $30/$40 per person depending on which one I go to. (Or both! lmao) Of course DC will be the one that makes me feel more at home. There’s no way in hell I’m going to the one in West Virginia. Also want to go to take photos of each race.
Please let me have money/transportation by the time these things come up.
I bought it. Or at least some version of it. I know I originally wanted to try the Genesis CBD but when I had the money in my account to purchase, they were sold out :(. And I was going to order, THAT day, no exceptions. I wanted something that would ship in time to be a birthday present to myself.
I ordered the 500 mg. It tastes like warm vanilla smoke, but in a bad way. It’s hard to get down. I have to chase it with few large gulps of water. And then it still leaves a gross taste in my mouth.
At this point, I’m not 100% sure if it does anything. The first couple times I took it I got a little sleepy (or this might have been completely unrelated sleepiness; I’m always tired and working on correcting my sleep disorder.) I’m going to continue to take this and see what happens. I want to do a proper test on a few bad headache days and see if it gives any sort of relief or even distraction, and for how long. I’ll make up a little chart and everything.
How I usually dose it is about 2 droppers full in the morning, or whenever I begin my day. And then 1 to 2 (or even 3) as needed for extra pain throughout the day. Is it doing anything? Am I experiencing some sort of placebo effect? Find out next time on the next episode of DBZ…
(I started this post like 2 weeks ago when it actually was my birthday, but never got around to finishing/uploading until today).
Just like the Lamictal, here I go again. I’ve started dosing down on my Namenda. I’ve known for quite a bit now that it hasn’t done anything. I mean I don’t think it has. Maybe there was a small benefit at first? Maybe there was no benefit at all? And it was just some sort of placebo.
Whatever the case, I’m dosing myself down to be completely off of it. I’m only doing my morning dose for 1 week, and then it will be none at all. That’ll leave me with only like 2 medications I take everyday?
The one where you just want to stop taking all your medications and just suffer.
To punish your own body for punishing you for so long.
Lately I’ve been giving that feeling serious thought. Because of side effects.
Side effects that my doctor has “never heard of before” and that “shouldn’t be happening because of this medication”. Nevertheless, I’m experiencing them. And every time I stop the medication, these side effects go away. It’s at the point where I would rather have high blood pressure than suffer through this side effect.
I do want to lessen the amount of medication I take daily. Although taking medication makes me feel like my conditions are more “real” and it’s not just all in my head as I’ve been told for years.
UGH I just have been horrible about updating this blog. I think I have mostly been using tumblr to post little complaining sentences lol.
Recently I have had a pulsed radiofrequency ablation procedure on my occipital nerves. I’m not sure if it has worked yet. It might have sent all my pain to the front of my head now? I know I have been using more Midrin than usual (probably because my sleep and work schedule has been very messed up lately though) which probably isn’t good. I’ve been getting more pain in the front of my head now, as opposed to the back/sides. I do know that I need to start physical therapy very soon because my neck and back are getting worse. I cannot put this off any longer.
It’s so hard for me to sit down and write something, but I am going to try my best to continue to do it. I always was a writer and I sort of miss it.
I feel as though I haven’t been updating this as much as I should, probably because I am TIRED. Sleepy girl for life.
This past Monday (1 week ago now) Jan 23rd, I saw my neuro-opthamologist for a follow up. Something about a test result with my retina being slightly abnormal, but I have a follow up with a retina specialist as soon as I email him and find out who he wants me to see. But the most exciting thing is, I finally got a prescription for Lamictal! This mysterious drug that I have been hearing about every time that I have went to see him for about a year now.
It’s an anti-seizure medication but it has shown to help with migraine and visual snow. It’s one where you will slowly have to increase your dose up to the correct amount to see any relief. I’ve only been taking it a week so far, and I am just EXHAUSTED. Never been so sleepy for so long in my life. I decided to caffeinate myself today, which was probably a bad idea, but I have things to do!
I am also very very paranoid of one of the rare side effects, Steven Johnsons syndrome (SJS) for no reason other than it makes your skin fall off and I really don’t want to deal with that.
For the first time since forever, I didn’t make a New Years resolution. The past two years my resolutions have been somewhere along the lines of “be healthier” and “manage my illness more”, but this year I didn’t think it would be fair to hold myself accountable for such an impossible goal.
It is not my fault that I am sick. It is not my fault that it is getting worse. And it is definitely not my fault that no treatments are working.
This year my resolution is:
What does that mean? I’m probably not even 100% sure at this point. I am hoping that this is a resolution I can remember throughout the year and that it is something that’s meaning will change depending on how life goes this year.
Right now, to me it means to keep going; to not get discouraged and not give up in seeking an appropriate treatment for my pain. To keep working even though I may be sacrificing my health for it. Rest, but do not give up.
When my neurologist left Johns Hopkins, I was distraught at the fact that I had to find a new one. I knew it would take time. And I’m usually a very patient person, but I’ve been without pain relief for too long now. But I scheduled a new patient appointment with another neurologist anyway and was determined to wait my 6months.
This month is January. My appointment was supposed to be February 1st, which was no problem! I could wait a month, that would be fine. I will just do my over the counter routine and it won’t be too bad because it’s only a month!
Surprise! They call to cancel my appointment. My doctor is now doing inpatient only that month, which is so not anyones fault and I don’t blame them, but I’m still upset. The earliest they could schedule me was June 1st. As in 6months from now JUNE 1ST! Now, THAT I don’t know how I’m going to make it to.
I do have an appointment with the Nurse Practitioner near the end of this month, but I’m not 100% sure what she can do for me? Can she prescribe me new medications? Can she recommend me for the nerve burning procedure? I just need SOMETHING that will work.
I’m going to make a list of everything I want her to cover with me and bring it so I won’t forget anything. So far that list looks like:
Botox?! is it worth/too expensive!!
Nerve Blocks work but are too temporary
Can she get me into the pain clinic for the nerve burning?
I got my results through email today. And all I can say for now is
fuuuuuuuuccckk I really did not want heart problems. I am pissed and disappointed at my body. I don’t need this! ANY of this.
Ok, lets calm down… Look at the facts.
I’m sorry for the shitty quality of this, but JH puts their images in some BS Java application that won’t let me save to PDF. I’m going to try to print a copy at work later.
I was monitored for 21 days which came out to 491.28 hours.
Out of that time, my average heart rate was 98BPM. Tachycardia present for 40% of the time.
Am I dying?! Probably not. But I am WORRIED. What is the treatment for this?? Am I going to have trouble later on in life? Will I eventually die of this even if I am an old lady? I don’t know if I can wait until march for my follow up appointment.
I think I’ve worked myself up into a tachy episode reading these results lmao. Maybe I will try to stretch my back out and calm down.
Reminder to myself: It’s not the end of the world. You will survive this, just like everything else. Just BREATHE.